I don’t like writing this negative post but this is sort of like a diary for me and this bit is true. Since starting my next year of uni, I have managed to get behind a great deal again. Sad times. Even though in a previous post I stated that I was determined to prove to myself that I would get myself organised and on top of things, so far not so good unfortunately.

For some bizarre reason work picked up just as I was starting the module, and when I do have some time alone I just seem to want to relax, sometimes to recover from work. This is obviously a habit I need to get over. It’s only a 30 credit part time course and so I don’t entirely understand why I let myself slip, though I have struggled with some of the basic concepts that I hadn’t studied previously as I am not a maths student and am in fact a science student (you skip a previous maths module). I only ever really want to study for about a hour each night maximum, my concentration span is really that bad.

At the moment I am trying to focus on improving myself. I do have an interest in astrology, not as much as I used to but I still have a little look every now and then. One thing I do keep an eye on is a solar return. This year (birthday to birthday) it looks as if the universe is giving me the energy of change. I’m hoping I can ride with this energy to change myself for the better in terms of overcoming my shortcomings and demons; instead of it becoming something negative. I think everyone would agree that trying to get past these things into something positive takes a lot of effort because it is not easy.

I also forgot to say Happy Halloween on the 31st of October! I celebrated it alone this year, but it was rather nice watching Hocus Pocus in bed eating Hotel Chocolat’s Halloween chocolates. It felt all a bit rushed this year and I didn’t dress up. I could spend a whole weekend just watching Halloween-y films! I did listen to Panic! at the Disco’s It’s Almost Halloween though.

Isn’t it getting all a bit cold outside now, this is the part of autumn that I am not all that keen on. So far this year, autumn has been rather warm still, but not since the start of November. It makes me look to the future and try to figure out how many months it will take to warm again. I really don’t like mid-January until about April/May. Maybe it’s because of the old school/college days of getting nervous about preparing for exams etc., it’s also because there is nothing really to look forward to or get excited about for so long. Bit of a boring time really, though I shouldn’t really say that because my boyfriend’s birthday is during that period lol. Pancake Day happens to be too!

Still, I have been enjoying walks wearing a big jumper and coat with cold on my cheeks. Seeing all the colourful leaves on the pavements next to the remaining green grass. Last night was bonfire night, it was nice looking around at all the firework displays in the distance. Apart from that we didn’t really do anything. Pinterest has all different recipes and party ideas for it which did have me inspired though I didn’t actually do anything about it.

I have been thinking about making a look book with all my clothes and potential outfits; coats; TV show reviews; Halloween-y films; dance films; last but not least Christmas!

Oh, and I also visited MCM Comic Con last weekend! Should really post about that next..

I feel like I have forgotten to write something, which is unnerving.

Back to the maths,

Amy x

I’ve been on a diet/cutting down unhealthy habits now since the start of July. Coincidentally that was just under a month after I sat my exam. In between these two dates I figured that I was moving around more and that weight would naturally just come off, oh how I was wrong. Maybe it’s my age but it didn’t, so that’s what called for more drastic action. To be honest I haven’t lost that much weight, even now. Admittedly I have had cheat meals, more to the 80/20% range. It’s easy to blame the lack of weight loss on some mythical health issue, but I’m sure it’s there in the back of all our heads..

I said cutting down unhealthy habits because quite frankly I don’t like the idea of being on a diet and it’s not that nice being on one either. Healthy habits sounds more permanent and a positive choice to look after your body. Which essentially, is exactly why you’ve chosen to go on one in the first place.

A couple of aspects I like about this new regime thing, is that I now walk several times a week and do yoga. Both of these are not a chore really. I was going to say eating much more fruit is another aspect too, but there are times where I just want to eat nice foods, not necessarily healthy ones..

I think the main thing about making positive changes is that you need to pick things that you actually enjoy. If not, then it’s going to seem like a chore and you will eventually (holds breath) give up/fail (shock). Not as easy as it sounds. Especially if you have people around you that don’t need to make changes in their life (or want to of course) and people who are not sensitive to your own goals of a healthier you. Hard facts everyone.

To be honest if you search healthy anything on Pinterest, so much is shown. It is a big thing at the moment. There are many popular topics and on the section that shows you what is being searched, many of them are based around fitness, food and well being. One of the topics provided by Pinterest that I regularly click on is ‘Health and Fitness’.

Now it is coming to Autumn and the winter months, I wonder how many people will stick to healthy eating. I think we all like to hibernate. Although, I do prefer autumn/winter vegetables, think potatoes (both normal and sweet), parsnips, carrots, pumpkin, any kind of roasties really. I will hopefully be buying some canned pumpkin this year, so watch for pumpkin related recipes. Going back to the hibernation point, I wonder if I will still want to take a walk when the temperature drops and the weather worsens? Hmm.

This post is a bit overdue, I was supposed to publish it in August. I tend to write essay posts so I guess I get a bit lazy. I’m hoping to keep the pace going whilst studying and working, mostly for enjoyment and to prove to myself that I can be super organised.

Hope you are enjoying Autumn!
Bye for now.

Amy x

I’ve been thinking about writing a style post.

I have always part-liked looking through magazines, but I don’t like it when they tell you that you have to think a certain way, or you have to look a certain way. I like the inspiration but I resent feeling like a sheep. So when I discovered Pinterest, I was ecstatic with the inspiration that I found. Also, I could pick and choose what I found interesting, for the most part Pinterest is just pictures where you can browse and search for what you want to look at. Magazines tend to talk about clothes as ‘fashion’, what everyone else is wearing or what celebrities are wearing. I don’t like that, but I like clothes and accessories.

This is where I had the realisation that I like style and other people’s style but which is often classified as fashion. So this part-like has been rejection of my natural feminine side and not wanting to follow everyone else. I have the same thing with makeup (though this is slightly different) and I guess other feminine things. I tend to have labels for everything and a lot of times, things and people in life don’t fit into boxes, they break the mould.

You just have to be yourself and try not to worry about people judging you, including yourself. Though sadly sometimes I find myself being nosey, looking up celebrity gossip/trash and I end up feeling guilty that I’ve done it. There is more to life than that. I don’t like most of the feminine stereotype of being materialistic and not caring much deeper than that. That is certainly not what I am about!

So anyway, I like seeing blog posts about people’s own clothes and their style, sometimes they blog about their shopping haul or sometimes people pick out outfits and new looks with pre-existing clothes. Or some people pick outfits from various clothes they’ve seen on the internet. It can then extend into accessories, nails and makeup. I also quite like looking back on ‘fashion’ for the previous few years.

I think you should always find what suits you. I’m referring to colours, styles, fit of clothes etc. I’m not particularly bothered by designers or brands, that doesn’t interest me. As long as it looks nice.

Now that it’s the summer, I like being able to wear tops and skirts, shorts and dresses! I have become a lot more feminine through my 20s.

I have also had an interest in makeup and the creativity of it, though I usually don’t wear any and I have a funny relationship to it. So I will probably write a blog post about it soon, as I have been searching for looks that suit me.

Signing out for now x

Amy

I miss MySpace. Like I can really feel nostalgic sometimes that it is no longer the same as it was when I was a teenager. I think it was one of the things that helped me find who I was and express my creativity. I’m not really sure why they have taken away the personalisation element to it (surely it’s just like Facebook now?), or why people ventured away from it.

I think people who liked using MySpace were really the future bloggers, as blogging provides some customisation. Though not quite to the extent of premade questionnaires that a lot of us liked completing, the personal information or the gadgets (I had a cute character). It was nosey but I enjoyed looking on a guy’s profile to see if they considered having children; the main answer I saw was ‘someday’. Then there was the music and the profile picture and the top friends, these are things that are missing from a blog but I wouldn’t say it would be good to add them because it’s just not a blog thing to do if that makes sense. I guess you still have the background, profile picture and content to customise in a blog. To get round the other things I mentioned, you could describe and add a link to your current favourite music, you could write a post answering questions to a questionnaire. You can still make friends and comment on another’s blog. Unless your closest friends have a blog, you can’t list them as your favourite people on blogs you follow. Basically it’s not quite a personalised page of who you are and what you like in summary.

Maybe for some of us, it would have been nice to keep the profile the same as a memoir of the teenage years. Except they have removed the majority of the content for some reason.. I did a little research online and saw someone post moaning that there wasn’t even a warning of the action to remove the content. If that was indeed the case, I agree with them and think that it was unfair (my account is registered to an email account I don’t use anymore, and so I don’t see its inbox anymore).
I wonder if they have saved all the settings and can reinstate them in the future?

Happy Spring!

x Amy x